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Chasing the Holy Grail of Meds: Part 3 of 3

The grail wasn’t what I thought it would be.

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Surviving the 30-Year Battle Between My Talent and My Depression

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What happens when you realize you’ve participated in your own erasure?

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When insight doesn’t quiet the old voice

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After 35 years of suffocating depression, I finally used the last of my air to speak up.