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Chasing the Holy Grail of Meds: Part 3 of 3

The grail wasn’t what I thought it would be.

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The grail wasn’t what I thought it would be.

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After 35 years of suffocating depression, I finally used the last of my air to speak up.

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No one can fix it for you, but that doesn’t mean you’re on your own

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My experience navigating depression that didn’t respond to treatment